Tercet: Libraries and pharmacies

The clashing swords of dragonfly fights

The silences of libraries and pharmacies

On everyone & everything to lose dependency.

ballpoint pen

During the week (enduring the Weak)

I keep this blood in me

Of people I’ve not yet met

Before I speak

Just so I can go and

Fling my ego,

Oh to flingo

Jupiter around me.

-Be meek!

‘Tis recommended

But, seek!

‘t shall be remembered.

Go!

Un even chaos disequilibrium tweak

highlighter & ballpoint pen

Lying naked & spread-eagled in the Spanish sunshine

Spanish flies,

Spanish wasps and Spanish spiders,

Feathers from Spanish pigeons,

Tiny quartz pebbles from the Spanish beach

Noticed and collected, just for their difference.

I might sleepwalk down to

The young blonde German hiker’s campsite tonight

And risk the German bark of her dog just for

A brief holiday snuggle,

Wake up in her strange tent and let her

Bring me a cup of black German coffee made on

Her efficient German camp stove

Then walk away from her warm German embrace

With a new smile on my face,

And write more poetry in reaction to all this.

Because I can’t bear my own longing

And I can’t stand holding all this love inside me.

The wine is not working this time, but!

How gorgeous to slip inside this space capsule here beside me

At night and zip up and away from all mankind

How glorious to set intention for control mind

And thought to align

With ever-awakening heart,

Knowing I have in the morning,

If I choose, a view of the Spanish coastline.

So, to let go

This Sadness

For it is not mine.

Barthelona

How would one seek love in a city of so too much

Fuck me! Sit and settle first

Accounts and spending in a currency that removes one

So completely from space and time.

So gothic so trendy so ubercool and so

Cool no longer exists.

What is, is.  Artificial cityscape

Where we do our best to avoid one another,

Slip inside some invisible doorway and disappear

Somewhere upstairs forever.

Leave the light on in my dorm room for strange roommates

And keep the wine flowing so that sleep can be met

As peacefully as possible

Because past-midnight peptalks in the mind

To reassure and relax self

Is a stressful and inefficient method of enjoying a European vacation.

black koki & white ink on black paper

SPAIN - Costa Brava

In the sexiest Moment,

When the voluptuous, wild Form

Of the Human Female Creature

Breaks out into the Arms of 

The Sun,

Shines unfettered, pure for the

Whole World,

And no-One, save the Wind in the

Pine Trees and

The Rocks that shape the empty

Car Park,

Are around to witness It;

This is True Beauty:

Sublime Loneliness

(deconstruction of a feather) - ballpoint pen & black koki

The quiet street - Part 1

Hostel New York, Carrer Gignas

Pt. 1: Close enough to but far away enough from Las Ramblas

Friends are close by

Neighbours cough and weeze French – or is it Russian?

-on the balcon three metres away

And across the narrow street divide North Africans

Take refuge behind cardboard and duct tape-covered windows,

Suitcases, ladders and wooden stools piled high in their

Peeling paint corridors

Too, I see trucker-capped white boys rolling a hashish joint.

What pent-up conversations do they have perched on

Barely fifty centimetres of outdoor space, I wonder.

Scooters and bicycles and rave music continue up and down and

All around, it’s half past midnight and my revelling dorm-mate

Strangers have yet to return.

The ends of my nerves are roughened already.

I’m ok in this urban Catalonian space

Where the light of the sun barely seems to matter.

Perhaps the morning will figure in a brief silence

Before action.  Perhaps siesta mindspace should take effect

And I learn to share my presence with these other Earthly wanderers.

Carrer d’Ataulf and your calming green health pharmacy sign,

Take these huge bricks and wrought-iron heavinesses

And loosen up the what now brow of this weary and season sick

But curious dreamer for the next two eves, please.

We have quite some distance to go.

This is the quiet street.  Close enough to but far away enough from

Las Ramblas.

black koki & ink on black paper

The quiet street - Part 2

Hostel New York, Carrer Gignas

Pt. 2

Who should I be

In this city of fleeting identities

Many things to many people

But who to me, 

One singularity?

Remain the Chameleon,

Anonymous and insignificant here,

Rebel there,

Goddess and dreamer and what else?

Pray, tell.

Brought up by wolves.

I am guided.

How and who should I love?

These things, surely, will be revealed

But I find no answer in Barcelona.

I shall take my heart elsewhere.

black koki & white ink on black paper

A nightair's breath whisper

A Nightair’s breath whisper promise under sparse light of waning moon,

                Unfulfilled & antisocial, with large surface conversations

offered & reciprocated in the interim,

awaiting adherence to the call to stall further loss of precious brain connections,

Undoes treacherous voices spelling a growing older, and a disquiet in the memories

                of what has long come and gone.

                Undone.

These things, I’m promised, are immaterial.

The avocado tree in my back garden has been lopped.

                Chopped.  Irradicated.

                Removed from the stream of time.  Downed.

                Drowned in seaview psychosis.  Gone forever.

                Lying in pieces here on the lawn at 3AM.

Everything has come & gone, the slow death of this tree in pieces.

                Everything is here & now & no longer.  Here.  Now.

                Alone cold and dry, alone.                          

                All is not light.

                Hail to the Darkness tonight.

untitled (Tercet)

The Darkness came down and the Moon came out

Who the fuck am I to be miserable?

She said

ALIGNMENT - pencil on paper, 2010

Painterly poetry

Painterly poetry feed unfolding of sound & information seed beholding

A constant continuum of unfathomable flow:

It’s ok to not everything know.

We’ll get it right.  It doesn’t have to be a fight.

No shadows are cast in a world without light. 

pen & pencil on paper

What the ocean might see

The speck of a woman bends over

Sunhatted & Transvaal sandal-footed

With her little phone camera

To shoot & kill & keep

Some insignificant yet

Monumentous moment in time

On the desert-vast sandiness of your shoreline.

Fat speck of a woman,

With her three fat Ayrshires

Choking at the ends of their designer leashes

On the gargantuan freedom of your emptiness.

Lost!

-You laugh

pencil sketch 

The sound of the ocean at night

A constant crashing, a numberless number

Of everything that ever was and

Ever will be thrashing, turning and tumbling

Revolving, curling,

Foaming, mumbling, murmuring,

Voluminously involuting inside

Out, under and over and under

And under and under, ancient and always

Giant fluid plasma thunder creature, finding

Peace through continuous rapture and seizure,

Roaring gushing fight flushing glory fury,

Oh nameless Name of boundlessness and seeking

pencil sketch

untitled (Tercet)

I learned my movements from the cartoons

I was taking notes when they kissed in the movies.

I no longer wish to impose myself on the night sky when I go out for a cigarette.

sketch for a painting

ARMAGEDDON BOX (Symbolic violence) Pt. 5

Storm on my cheek, cigarettes and wine for company

Oh we need this cold come again

Whoop whoop! Homi

Dancing young skirts up High sexy & holy

Enter left fantasy

Sans comedie oder tragedie

And words!  Oh fine

Company and the signs,

Sigils for nature’s remedy

Where is my bride, tucked away at

My found home tight, too tight

Alphas & Romeos, no song for you tonight

Competition on the telly, just in case

Folks, just in case you might

Need some tennis, racing, or other shallow

Delight. Fuck off.

Come hither & let me lick you

Wide open.  Give me your creamy insight

some snow on the TV

ARMAGEDDON BOX (Symbolic violence) Pt. 4

Pt. 4

Oh but to exhale

                clear lungs once & for All

                of cheap sex humour tugging

                incessantly & invitingly

                sickly once more, alluring

          in its Purity

Animal my animal must               

                meat your animal unashamed

                bring it & let’s do it finally

                let’s have an affair

                & pray that you don’t tell, that

          no one in this small town has eyes to see

And so, you see I’ve only faint ideas

                of why they always find me:

                mysterious liaisons, non-existent as

                they may be, chronically related to

                my trying so hard & working so hard 

         at this in mind, garden & notebook

ARMAGEDDON BOX (Symbolic violence) Pt.3

Pt. 3

Incite: Minds be blown open wide!

Exhort: Blinds be folded up & dusted clear

Come here!  Sit in my lap & fold your arms round

My newly muscled neck, share if you care

I’m almost mad, take me there?

Or do I go too far.

Do words I have lead me astray.

Does imagination fail me as it holds me upright

Butter on my buns, and I need gumboots

Stop me from slipping or twisting ankle

So energy be ready for tapping

New designs, new fortune set loose

Quiver full, strings tight.

Nemesis met & shame nearly vanquished

Just this now.  Whiteboards aplenty, stationery

Held, ink dripping from the quill &

Space to be harnessed & gently destroyed

(employed)

Go get rescue none for me.  Need to

Walk this alone: hum bass drum

Come you mofo’s come

Time to refine humour & sense of sanity

Realms gush & pour freely, make a river

So accessible,

Drink from & replenish

Souls hold a banquet please

I want not Home but to walk

This path.  Walk, tread, stare, envision

Dig & rake & remake Love

Heavenly bodies

Addicted to ideas & got this

Way to carve

Spit ‘n sizzle, I live in a Garden

Earthly delights, indeed

Lose speed & torture, breathe in

Total, obliterating Okayness

Sumptuous

Missing

Nothing.

Ready. Bitches be hungry

ARMAGEDDON BOX (Symbolic violence) Pt. 2

Pt.2

Still sit

Here wondering

About all the wondrous women I could

Run away with for the night safe &

Trust hidden away & some taken with

Spirit away & curl up warm & wet

For sweet salvation

Sweet and lovely safe

Warm

Fun & silly passionate & waking

Never-ending, enveloping twisting

Rolling touching

Finding

Gun ships. War. God’s own commandoes

Shoot selves in backs of helicopters

There’s a first time to fire a gun for each guy

Spill beans ‘n guts from army ration tins

Collected on memorabilia walls

Along with bayonets & helmets, cartridges of

Pain despair fear glory & irony.  Wrong

Would I if right now a woman

Should come along

ARMAGEDDON BOX (Symbolic violence) Pt. 1

Pt. 1

Fall in love

with me again

she says.  What?

Invitation away to sing my silliness into something Her

But restless bed instead is there

Feel Young Time slipping and no decisions I’d like to make

just to talk.  To talk and bitch & moan & describe

debate, explore

create, discuss & search out

A quest   ion  .

            S

            E

Anger is short-lived E       these days

                             M

                             L

                             E

                       CROSS

Not                        S       feeling you.

Feeling Me.  Ravenous & kinky blue

Bruised & holy, uninfected

Infused instead by earthlife, select

& mind erect!!

& cold returns once more to reawaken

Acheing lonely bones

Someone grabbed a slice of life (and that’s why there’s a hole in your paper)

Shit.  We miss.  Indeed we forget

And we’re re-learning

Arranging the signs as we walk

With these very random thoughts

We try tweak ‘em, add zero

And derive root advice off talk strange

Faces proud yet understanding

Want, share individual miraculous & magical knowing

Without ways of truly showing

We express try

Try take figments make memory

Try. Behave. Try share. Be merry

Facebook Make You Feel Like No One (2009)

Aye, bizarre be the word

In this transit terminal

So stand next to your best man

Look up look eyes find the othamuthafuckaz

Amazing, truly incredible don’t you think

The longevity of things

Elusive emanences of the consciousness in

And between the space and awareness of happenings

I give to you glyphs of rhyme and brave tellings

Sweet offerings, fruits of silence sown, peace grown

To drown out or to face being ground down by Bab'lon machine realm

- Blessings to us all, whatever the case

Listen (2009)

2047

Imagined

I did > image

blurred came forth

and then silver-armed flew through the flow

along the rivers of air

wind. pipes. harmonica alive in the honey

blow mouth organ

BLOW: BLEW BLUES

up from down, play your G

so I can tune in with my G 

design from 2009

will send images on the morrow

it might not be rain, but it’s moisture

come on?! at the very least…

boy’s night out.

and yes, it’s better like this.

transcribe the parallels, then

pull up socks, tighten ego

and begin the walk

right in

like the movies you like to watch

again and again because

they take you back to those

sacred soft places